Sometimes, more often than not, I have so much to say, I say nothing at all. It's almost like if I say one thing I feel like I want to share a million other related things and then it all becomes to much, so I stay silent... Crazy right!!!
It is kind of like being in a house so cluttered that it's hard to find what you need to when you need to do something so... It never gets done.(speaking from experience...)
I am working on cleaning up, clearing out, simplifying in a number of ways. Today I was in our basement searching for something to no avail and on top of a random pile I saw this little intaglio print from college.(I snapped the crappy reflective photo on my phone.)
It is not my work and I can't even remember the name of the guy who did it. I remember having a mad crush on him, that he was a bartender
and had long curly hair and that we would pull prints with other classmates in to the wee hours of the morning.
One night I saw this little piece in the trash. A proof perhaps. It moved me, I loved it, he signed it, I framed it at the gallery I worked in and hung it proudly in our homes for years.
When we moved from NYC to CO to CT in a matter of 2.5 years starting with a newborn and then newly pregnant, some of my prized possessions didn't make it out of storage. This is just one of them. Artifacts of some formative times in my life just forgotten.
So as I step fully in to this role of creative explorer I realized the last time I operated with the same quest of discovery was likely in college. Largely in the studio spaces of the University of Colorado at Boulder, just where this print was pulled and ultimately rescued. I also realized that today... I'm really not so different.
This sweet little artifact, this print, will find a prominent spot on my home or studio wall. A badge of creative exploration. And, as I continue with the cleaning up and clearing out I will use the significance of this piece as a benchmark for what to keep and what to let go of...
Moving forward, creating space, finding clarity, exploring this creative life...